Walked home from starbucks today. 3 points:

1. It was bloody creepy walking pass the cemetery - especially when its gate was open and the inside was dark and well, creepy. I was half tempted to call joey and distract myself but decided against it because joey is mean.

2. Lots of new houses. So much changes in a mere 4 months.

3. Random guy blasting dance track while sitting by the field. Okay, after walking pass a graveyard, it wasnt nice to heard music drifting pass you without anyone in sight. Anyway, reminds me, i cant wait for this year's street party. I am so gonna oust abel from his seat as the emcee. Muahahahha.

Okay okay. Chem fac test tomorrow. Better go do up david's card now.


Ps. Jeshua went to church last saturday ! =)

jehovah jireh. =)

Okay. After visiting david today met up with the cell. Got a card from them. Not to mention quite embrassed by debbie and the cell. Brr.

Anyway, besides the card from Clar, Hoi, YanYi, Mabel and Debbie, i got another one from Debbie. Was expecting a personal one, was rather blown away when i saw the numerous scribblings inside. Lol.

Anyway, of all, 2 very memorable ones:

Hello best of wilfred, have fun in school !
Play hard, study hard...
and most (cant make out) climb hard !
But stay away from the boys !
(Cant make out the rest)


Seriously, i cant make much sense from it. I'm suspecting it to be a message from someone who knows i climb. Which isnt many - i think.

Then, the very *squeal squeal, rolls about in joy* one:

Hey
Blessed Birthday !
Continue to shine for Jesus.

Okay. What's so unique about the above one ? Well, it's from none other than, the uber lovable

(heart) Jireh baby !!


Ooooo. *squeals*


Okay. So there conclude the week. I'm really busy till 5th - so sorry about the pie Joey - so if you wanna meet up for whatsoever reason, try to get me after 5th alright ? =)


Ps. It's still not too late to get me a pair of haivainas/sandman graphic novel/zippo lighter/book store gift voucher.

I'm sorry andrew.

This weird chap named kenneth (that haising fella) messaged me on friendster wishing me happy birthday. Talk about surprises.

Anyway, met up with the old dude, lyon. More on it later.


Ps. If you're wondering about what to get, get me the sandman graphic novels. Any of it except the first.

thoughts

I went to bed last night thinking that sleep should be easy as i was really dead tired. But my dear brain seem to have other thoughts in mind - no pun intended. I cant help thinking about numerous things that happened or might happen.

Remembering what Johann said about fainting in the noon, it's not as if i wont wake, i thought of Yee Chiat and how he never woke. Thinking of my birthday tomorrow makes me even more upset. With a father who barely remembers and people whom have walked out of my life to remind me of how insignificant i am. Not to mention, every year it just makes me feel so depressed over the issue that God claimed him when he was only 14. For every year of experiences that i gain, be it the joy or the pain, he would never.


Growing up is a bittersweet experience.

eighteen.

I dont wanna be eighteen.


I never really enjoyed my 'birthdays' since a couple of years ago. It's just another stupid day. An exceptionally stupid day.

Zechariah 4:6

I get a funny feeling, that God's trying to tell me something. Especially when i keep coming across this verse as well as certain things.

Hello Brandon, i think God used you to speak to me. Who would have thought that when i was answering you, i was in actuality, answering myself.



Dear Jesus, i'm so afraid that i'll fail. I'm trying to do my best so that i wont disappoint. But i know, i cant do this alone, because without you, i'm nothing. My Lord of Hosts, despite my fear, i will walk on to do my best for you. After all, i know that in the end, no matter what happens, you would deliver me. Because, you are my God Almighty.


Then he answered and spake unto me, saying, This is the word of the LORD unto Zerubbabel, saying, Not by might, nor by power, but by my spirit, saith the LORD of hosts.

chem and pies

Was almost late for service as i was desperately trying to locate my chem notebook some 10 minutes before i left home. In the end i didnt even find it. Thank God i made it in time - despite missing the train and all.

Anyway, after service and cell, samuel came over and i was about to leave when i commented that i'm taller than him today. He was rather amused by it and pointed out that i'm wearing heels. I later messaged cheryl to tell him that well, he could wear heels too.

Studying at starbucks wasnt really successful. The medicine is working wonders on me almost slept on the bus ride to starbucks as well as halfway through service - it's literally impossible to sleep through worship. So yea. At least managed to clear up alkenes and started on halogenoalkanes. Yayness. Shall have consultation with MsHuang soon. Hur.


Ps. Johann, i found a recipe that seems good. Shall most likely try it this coming weekend. (:

Feburary 5th

I've been reading some 2 dozen of apple pie recipes but cant seem to figure out which to use or how it would be better. Like do you think apple pies with more or less sauce is nicer ? Sigh. Decisions, decisions.

Oh well. Everything for Feburary 5th right ? Tskk. Shuyun is such a nice person.

today.

I felt sad.

Then there was track. Amazingly, the j1s are great fun.

At least i dont feel unappreciated there.


Whining to Benji now.

for a much needed ego boost.

just for the record.

Carpe diem.


Hello God. I dont know why. I cant seem to pinpoint anything, but then nevertheless, i just wanna say thanks. =)

school/hippo/chingay

I think i finally realised that we're in a 'new year' now.

Anyway, there was a vs guy from the siglap starbucks days who asked about 'my hippo'. I proceeded to bring wilfred to school 2 days later. He seems to be fascinated with wilfred. I fear for my hippo.

Speaking of wilfred. I went to starbucks after school that day. After dumping my stuff i went home to change out and pick up some books. It was raining like crazy when i left for starbucks again. Then, as i alighted from the bus and was cross the road to walk towards starbucks, this car sped pass me, causing a waist-high wave to splash on me. Thank goodness wilfred only got a lil' water on his rear paws. Justin was amused when he heard about it, asking if i shielded wilfred from the wave with my body or something. Seriously, the hippo's innocent !

Afterwhich, when i went home that evening, it was raining again and i guess, due to the noon's inncident, i got a lil' paranoid and hence, whenever i saw a car, i started to murmer to myself about how the hippo's innocent. Honestly, i swear if i saw myself, i would wonder about my sanity.



Alright. Basically, it's been a boring day - besides waking up from my nightmare, not that the day didnt seem like another. Chingay training was boring. Soft spoken and boring leader with bunch of tweeds it seems. Bunch of srjc j1 girls whom when speaking seem to register "Hel|OooOzZ!!! W@tT isSsShHh yUr n@mEee??!!! eii aM XxXxXXX!! L0lxXxXx!!!" in my brain. Argh. Tweed alert !!!! Bloody chinks. But to make it seem better, i guess they're nice people. Just not the type i usually would choose to hang out with. Sigh.

Anyway, i hope the next time when i go out with Dan he wont try to tick me off using that again. The last time we went out and he did that, i was severly traumatised for days.



Sigh.


To soothe my nerves, will be cookie baking later.

Click on the images people !

hellooo God !

To my beautiful beautiful God on High, thank you.


Pondering, Galatians 5:13 .

I shall begin this post by whining.

SOMEONE CLEARED MY ITUNES PLAYLIST.

Know what's worst ? I cant find my cds. AS ALWAYS.

*rolls about and whines*

I WANT MY OASIS SONGS. I'M SUFFERING FROM WONDERWALL WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS.

Sigh.


Anyway, bio and econs tomorrow. Tired studying. I'm serious i tried. But i couldnt get anything in. Econs is gonna be a 'just anyhow whack' case but i guess there goes bio. I'm not in the mood to know most of the reactions i guess. Ohhhhhhhhhh wwwwweeeeeeelllllllllllllllllll.

Okay. I got over the issue. Thank God it was only Johann.

Tomorrow's sunday. Maybe i'll see him again.

Was reasing some posts on the forums when i realised that an idiotic post about the timetable was made by yiyang. Somehow the thought that someone knows you due to the fact that you're always absent isnt that pleasant.

Anyway, jeshua came back to school today and said hi. Generally speaking, i should be like really happy. But thinking about what has happened today - not with jeshua, but some OTHERS - made me somewhat irritated. Oh well.

I think the only thing that brought some joy today were weijie's comments and jeshua coming over to speak to me. But also because it was jesh who personally came up to me and not the other way around, i didnt get much of a kick when i asked for his number later. Sigh.

Wonder what's that weird and twisted feeling i'm getting right now.

Oh well. Thank God i dont need to pass those dumb revision tests. I bet wilfred that i'll flunk them all horribly. Sigh. Math. Was supposed to get joey's cg but was too lazy to after it started raining. Argh. To heck with it.

1st day.

Everyone that wasnt a j1 or involved with the orientation seemed to be studying today. So freakishly scary. Speaking of scary. GP test tomorrow, math on friday. Die laaaa. Joshie, crash course !!!


Anyway, school's no longer as fun without jeshua. There's this emptiness to not having a jeshua to look out for and tease. Oh well.

Maybe i'll meet some other pretty names this year.

Hello apple pies.

I'm back and yes, school's starting in 2 days. I'm so doomed. Johann was asking if i'm ready. Sometimes, i think he knows me quite well. Sigh. Anyway, managed to convince my dear neighbour to join me in detention for the term. Well, company is always good. Joey's still making fun of me right now because of that guy while Esther's saying how i'm losing it. =/

Oh well. Out with my dear old Daniel again tomorrow. Econs crash course. Hur.




Andrew. I just read. I know whatever i say wont make you feel better but i'm sorry. Sorry for being insensitive to that feeling i should too be familiar with in the first place.

It's a new year. Like wow.

I'm getting outta track and i seriously hope i'm gonna start studying. Heck. If i'm gonna be as lousy a housewife as Johann thinks i will be, i better be good at something.

I remember my new year's resolutions for 2006. I think i got some half fufilled. Main one that i failed terribily at doing is the one about MONEY MANAGEMENT.

Alright. I already summed up the year early this month, nothing much changes about how i feel.